(NOTE: It's been years since I last accessed my blog site and found this unpublished blog. It was drafted way back 2008! Got me quite emotional when I saw the photos. But it also made me happy to know that our dear Enzo has improved so much after his operation. Way to go, Enzo!)
Hmmm... it's been a while since I last made an entry here. Enzo truly occupies me most of the time that I hardly visit my blog site anymore. Oh well, that's the price of being a mom. You cannot ignore the needs of your child, no matter what!
No regrets there, oh no! It's just that sometimes, I wish I could have enough time for myself and the things I wanted to do without feeling guilty.
But anyhoo, there is a very much significant event in our lives recently that I have to write about. It's about Enzo's palatal operation. As I have mentioned in my previous blog, Enzo was diagnosed by his maxillofacial / craniofacial surgeon, Dr. Roberto M. Pangan, with Pierre Robin Syndrome so we were told early on that he will undergo a surgery to close the opening on the roof of his mouth by the time he reaches his 9th or 10th month.
And so it arrived. The day that me and my husband and our family has been dreading about...
DAY 1.
Monday, 14 July 2008
It was a rainy Monday afternoon. Ricky & I together with Daddy Ric and Kuya Stanley went to the Cardinal Santos Medical Center in San Juan for Enzo's scheduled x-rays and laboratory tests to make sure he is fit to undergo the needed operation.
The E.R. pediatricians were the ones who extracted blood from our poor Enzo. He was crying the whole time. A relatively huge amount of blood was needed to be extracted from him in order to make the tests accurate. There were about 10 blood tests needed! And so they have to insert needles in him here and there just to get the right amount of blood. I wanted to scream at that time and order the doctors to stop what they're doing to my son. But I can't because I know it was necessary. Seeing Enzo cry that much just by extracting blood from him made me worry about his operation even more...
DAY 2.
Tuesday, 15 July 2008
Hmmm... it's been a while since I last made an entry here. Enzo truly occupies me most of the time that I hardly visit my blog site anymore. Oh well, that's the price of being a mom. You cannot ignore the needs of your child, no matter what!
No regrets there, oh no! It's just that sometimes, I wish I could have enough time for myself and the things I wanted to do without feeling guilty.
But anyhoo, there is a very much significant event in our lives recently that I have to write about. It's about Enzo's palatal operation. As I have mentioned in my previous blog, Enzo was diagnosed by his maxillofacial / craniofacial surgeon, Dr. Roberto M. Pangan, with Pierre Robin Syndrome so we were told early on that he will undergo a surgery to close the opening on the roof of his mouth by the time he reaches his 9th or 10th month.
And so it arrived. The day that me and my husband and our family has been dreading about...
DAY 1.
Monday, 14 July 2008
It was a rainy Monday afternoon. Ricky & I together with Daddy Ric and Kuya Stanley went to the Cardinal Santos Medical Center in San Juan for Enzo's scheduled x-rays and laboratory tests to make sure he is fit to undergo the needed operation.
The E.R. pediatricians were the ones who extracted blood from our poor Enzo. He was crying the whole time. A relatively huge amount of blood was needed to be extracted from him in order to make the tests accurate. There were about 10 blood tests needed! And so they have to insert needles in him here and there just to get the right amount of blood. I wanted to scream at that time and order the doctors to stop what they're doing to my son. But I can't because I know it was necessary. Seeing Enzo cry that much just by extracting blood from him made me worry about his operation even more...
DAY 2.
Tuesday, 15 July 2008
Around 2.30PM, we left for the hospital and arrived after 30 minutes or so. When we got there, we thought we will be admitted at once for we have enlisted for a room the day before. But to our dismay, we were kept waiting for almost two hours because there is no available room at that time yet. I cannot believe that so many people are being hospitalized on that day!
Finally, after almost an hour of waiting, we were able to get a room. Room 332. We immediately unpacked and arranged our stuff. Enzo was still playful. We brought some of his toys, of course, so he was quite busy the whole time. Though the operation will be done tomorrow, we are still relaxed... or we would like to think so...
I know that at the back of my and my husband's mind, there is worry. But also, there is faith that everything will be fine... that there is nothing to be afraid of... that Enzo is in good hands and that he will successfully get through this.
DAY 3.
Wednesday, 16 July 2008
Wednesday, 16 July 2008
I haven't slept since Monday and I still wasn't able to sleep last night. I know I shouldn't worry but I can't. This is my only son... the one I have waited to arrive for nearly five (5) long years. But I can't talk to anyone about my fears. Not even Ricky. I know he has his own worries about our son, too. So I just lay beside Enzo and watched him sleep. We were told by the nurses and the resident doctors the night before that they will pick Enzo up at 7.00AM and have him prepped-up for the surgery which was scheduled at 8.00AM.
By 3.00AM, Enzo is no longer allowed to drink any milk or eat anything. Luckily, he slept the whole night through. I took a bath at 5.30AM and got ready. Then at exactly 7.00AM, the nurses came in and took me and Enzo into the Operation Room.
I was asked to accompany Enzo into the O.R. until he was deeply sedated. There I've seen how the staff and the doctors prepared for the surgery. I was trying to hold my tears the whole time. I knew Enzo was in good hands but I can't help but worry about him. I just did my best for remove the "what ifs" in my mind. I just prayed hard for Him to guide the hands and the minds of the doctors and nurses and the staff who will be handling my son so that everything will be alright.
Dr. Roberto Pangan got in the OR after a while. My "kaba" got back because I knew they were about to start with the operation in just a short while. And so when Enzo finally fell asleep, they asked me to leave the OR. I wanted so badly to beg them to let me stay but I knew they wouldn't so I just obliged and got back to our room. It was 8.25AM.
While in our room, random thoughts run through my mind. I couldn't relax. I was trying to sleep but I just couldn't. I couldn't even eat breakfast and even lunch. I wanted to see Enzo and make sure that everything was okay with him.
Until 3PM came and I got a call from the OR. I was told that the operation was over and that I can now go to the recovery room to see my son. And so I literally rushed there and found Enzo crying. His face was sore and he had bandage around his head to keep his hair off his face. He sure did looked like he went through a lot. I fought really hard to stop myself from crying upon seeing him.
After a while, Dr. Gomez removed the bandage from his face. We just had to wait for another hour before we can go back to our room. So at exactly 4PM, we were already in our room. Enzo was sleeping the whole time because he was sedated but I knew he was in pain because the anesthesia was starting to wear off. He was also very hungry for he has not had milk for more than 12 hours already. Oh, my poor Enzo... :'(
Day 4.
Thursday, 17 July 2008
Enzo is still sedated so that he won't feel too much pain. But since yesterday, he doesn't want to sleep on the bed. He wants to be carried the whole time. Maybe he is afraid that when I let go of him again, something will happen to him. I know he's really hungry now but I still cannot feed him because he can't swallow and he's still sedated. Aww... I can't wait to give him milk...
Day 5.
Friday, 18 July 2008
It's Enzo's 10th month birthday today and there won't be a big celebration. But still we ordered pizzas, burgers, fries and spag for everyone to enjoy. Though Enzo still looks weak and sickly, he's getting better now. He's starting to make "kulit" again and smiles a bit. I was also able to put him on the bed but only for a short while. I also tried feeding him today but he still cannot swallow. Hopefully by tomorrow he will be able to feed even in small amounts of milk so that he can recover much faster.
Day 6.
Saturday, 19 July 2008
It is such a dreadful day today! The vein where Enzo's IV was connected collapsed and so they had to transfer it to another vein but unfortunately, after almost an hour of trying to insert it again from one vein to another, they failed to do so! Enzo was crying the whole time. Sobrang nakaka-awa talaga. I was also crying the whole time to because he was really crying in pain. I really hate it when he cries like that and I can't do anything to stop him from feeling the pain.
They finally gave up trying and instead asked me to try and feed him milk so they won't have to insert an IV on him again. All his medicines will be given to him orally instead. Since he cannot use his feeding bottle for a month, I only use a medicinal syringe to feed him. Luckily, he was able to finish his milk even though it took him quite a while. But at least he's starting to feed again and today, he's kind'da getting back to his old self. He's quite makulit again and he's now smiling more. He liked it a lot when I read to him again after several days.
His Ninong Marco & Ninang Tasha paid him a visit and at the same time bid their goodbyes as they were about to leave for Germany and stay there for good. Awww... we're going to miss them.
Later, Tita Ninang Ruby arrived with a very big present for Enzo. She gave him a Tomy - Winnie the Pooh push-toy that turns into a bike! Very nice. It was cute to see Enzo trying to open his gift. But his Dad was more excited than him, I must say! Haha...
Later, Tita Ninang Ruby arrived with a very big present for Enzo. She gave him a Tomy - Winnie the Pooh push-toy that turns into a bike! Very nice. It was cute to see Enzo trying to open his gift. But his Dad was more excited than him, I must say! Haha...
Enzo is much better now. He's really starting to make kulit again and he won't stop jumping and moving too much. He won't even sleep early. And he still can't be put down so we had to take turns in carrying him. But at least he's doing well. Thank God!
Day 7.
Sunday, 20 July 2008
Enzo's almost ready to go home now, I think. He's so much playful now than yesterday. But he's still very clingy, not wanting to be put down. His Ninang Aya and Ninang Tyn went to visit him today. I missed my friends. Of course, Janus went with them, too. Vhic followed afterwards. We had Krispy Kreme donuts for meryenda. Super yummy!
I so want to go home already. It's so restless here in the hospital...
I so want to go home already. It's so restless here in the hospital...
Day 8.
Monday, 21 July 2008
Monday, 21 July 2008
Though Enzo is way much better now, he still doesn't want to be put down. Feeding him is also time consuming. It's exhausting but it's ok. Just as long as he'll be comfortable.
Dr. Pangan dropped-by and advised us that we will be able to go home tomorrow after they have removed the dressing from Enzo's mouth. Can't wait to go home!
Day 9.
Tuesday, 22 July 2008
Tuesday, 22 July 2008
At 7.00AM, Enzo and I were taken to the OR for the removal of the dressing in his mouth. They sedated him and afterwards, they started removing that thingy off his mouth. I thought I was going to be sent out of the OR but they let me stay inside until the whole thing was over. I couldn't look when the doctors were working on him. I wanted to take a video or picture but I was too nervous to even look at what they're doing.
Finally, after 30 minutes or so, we were sent back to our room. It was so funny because though Enzo was heavily sedated, he was awake. He looked like a drunk baby or something. He couldn't focus on the things he was looking at. It was just so funny looking at him. He looked so silly! :))
Anyways, we were then advised that we can go home. We just have to wait for the clearance to go home from Dr. Cynthia Padilla. But since she was out of the country, it was Dr. Kitty Gayo who will give the clearance. While waiting for Dr. Gayo to arrive, we prepared our things already and did some pictorials with Enzo's nurses and resident doctors.
After paying all our bills, we were finally able to leave the hospital. And at around 1PM, we were finally home! It so nice to see our house again. It's so nice to sleep on our bed again. I guess Enzo felt the same way because he slept comfortably the whole night through!
After paying all our bills, we were finally able to leave the hospital. And at around 1PM, we were finally home! It so nice to see our house again. It's so nice to sleep on our bed again. I guess Enzo felt the same way because he slept comfortably the whole night through!